Spring Showers

Don't it suck when you don't expect someone to break up with you?
You didn't know it was gonna happen therefore you also didn't know the last time you made love that it would be the last time AAAW!
The end of a romantic union is kind of like "The Quickening", sure it's painful, I'm feeling it, but you get a benefit from the person just by sharing intimate space.
It could back fire, this time it didn't.
I've never been into breaking up as much as working stuff out but I also don't want to be an a "mutual misery society" I must say, it's dissapointing to lose that love.
I'm hard wired to be someones strength, back up, advocate, and partner, I don't like making great strides and having no one to share the bounty with.I want the person to deserve my adoration, I want to deserve thiers.
BUT!
I had a great time!
We went to another country, we shagged six ways to sunday, we had great talks and she was involved in an odd occurance.
I offered to help her tie loose ends at her apartment when she moved out of SW portland, I was getting my bike "Broadzilla" and she had asked me to bring her broom and small vacume to her new place in South East P town.
I tied my lasso around the brooms and made a belt to strap them to my back sword style.
I then rode the long trip through downtown and up the big hill to Hawthorne.
While crossing one of the big bridges I looked at our magnificent city, saw the broom with the river behind it and a voice told me "Hey fellah? ever hear of a broom riding a witch home?"
that was rad.
lessons were learned, it's hard not to.
With each love encounter we share, we walk away with a sometimes hidden programing from that person, it may not surface for years but you always learn something.
New thinking?
For me yes.
Now as the dust of a great romance is settling, I am reaping some good habits.
My teeth have never been cleaner, I'm more discriminating of potential mates.
making sure I'm respected before I feel, dissed, punked or forgotten.
I also now know to watch that I don't project passed heart breaks on new challenges.
I like the sunlight now (in moderation) 6 months ago I did everything I could to avoid sunlight.
I also began appreciating the cat that "came with" my room...didn't see that coming, I don't like living with cats.
I think I should just go back to dating pornography.

The tears are drying, the sun is shining, it's a great time to be a rock star in Portland.